livingalife's Blog

My Chemical Romance has been releasing there Conventional Weapons songs and recently the song ''The Light Behind Your Eyes" has been really reaching out to me. Im like sitting here crying, legit. Its such an amazing song..

* Never fade in the dark, just remember you will always burn as bright *

I wonder if i have met the person I am going to marry. i wonder if i have met my soul mate. Sometimes I wonder if i really am in love with ____.  Some people get marreid to their high school sweethearts and best friends all the time, right?

I Write a lot of shit about you
I say a lot of shit about you
I think a lot of shit about about
I want a lot of shit for you
I care way too much about the shit you do
I think I care way too much about you
Because you couldnt care less about me

Your Waiting For Me To Look At The Light
I'll Walk Forever To Find It
I'll Drown In Any Water To Find It
Even If My Eyes Are Jaded And My Heart Is Bloated
Ive Lost A Love Between Broken Piano Pieces
Im Tired of Dancing For This Ghost Town
Under A Candle Lit Street Lamp
Thats Been Fading Forever

It's always been something I've had to get over. For some reason I always turn to pills to ease my mind. Now, I'm only 14, so don't be to quick to judge. I've been down some dark roads.. A week before my 13 th birthday, I was signed into a Crisis Center. I was cutting myself, was very depressed, really wanted to not live, and was struggling to get off drugs. After being there for a week; I got sober, and was in therapy for almost a year. I was put on Prozac. I needed to readjust to just.. Life. I was happy, but sooner or later those thoughts and feelings unearthed themselves. First things I do was grab a blade, next little Ms. Me was raiding the medicine cabinet, going to people I know, just to get some relief. But thank God one of my friends was there to "talk me off the cliff" . If only he knew how many times he has saved my life.  I'm still struggling with my sobriety, and depression. Its a daily battle and all I can do is take it one day at a time. Anything is possible, but if your feeling desperate please talk to someone, anyone, Im always here as well .